Fluent Thoughts

Walking in Regents Park; listening to Fayrooz through my i pod’s head sets, thinking of nothing. Wonderful moments they were before my thoughts were floating again.

Thought 1: I was thinking of my brother and what he have told me; he told me that I am a hopeless person, weird and not living my life as I should. He thinks that I am crazy in some way, and that my personality is so different than anybody else. He thinks that my opinions about traditions and how much I think that they are a stupid man made ideas, is wrong.

Thought 2: Why it wouldn’t be a smile as first expression for a human instead of crying? Does it mean the first feeling was “fear” or “anger”; why isn’t it “love” or “happiness”?

Thought 3: Why am I afraid of commitment and marriage? I have a good example of happy marriage in my house. Why is it that feeling that I will not be happy in that kind of life, and that I will get hurt if I did?

Thought 4: Where is home?

I could die starving without knowing !!

I don’t have the hunger alarm any more; it had disappeared from my nerve system.

Not having the taste of food was not a problem that I cared about really, because all what I cared about in that situation was to fill my stomach with what ever food I find without caring what it tastes.

But now and for months I haven’t felt hungry, how could I know that I need to be fed if I don’t feel it?

Head aches is all what I feel when not eating my meal on it’s time. One day I had an apple juice and a cup of coffee at 6:00 am, and forgot to eat my lunch (yes forgot; I always do that) and stayed until 5:00 pm without eating any thing, after that head aches started so I had a couple of pain killers which made my stomach aches start. What to do? Call mom … “mom I have bad head aches and stomach aches” I said, “Oh dear, what did you eat?” mom replied, “Huh …. Nothing” I said, “What are you? a camel” Mom said.

Hello every body;
I really did miss you alot. My vacation was great; I did enjoy every moment of it. And now I will give you a brief of it through the following photos
(I don’t feel like writing today).

Istanbul; the best city in the world.

This was my first day shopping in London.
My second day shopping was from Waterstones
book store and books etc. book store.

I didn’t get any thing for me from here;
only gifts for my family.

This pigeon was joining me for a cup of coffee
in Starbucks.

Those beauties were every where.

This book was a gift from my dear friend Wass;
thank you Wass I read it all in one day under that tree

Inside this box there is a book; when
I saw it I remembered Bo ghazi, why?
I don’t know

Purgy’s penguins were following me where
ever I went

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