Fluent Thoughts

I am a stubborn and sometimes selfish, or not. Well that what some people tell me. I am not easily convinced; still I don’t force my ideas. I like to live my life the way I want no matter what others want me to do. I don’t like to be forced to things even if they were right and like doing them; if it is not by my will I never do it. My life is decisions that I take by my self, and I hate to be controlled. I do seek for advice some times and do appreciate them.

Sometimes fighting is not easy; sometimes I lose my strength, I have been so close to surrender but there were things that supplied me with strength. They were my tears long time ago but now they’re my smile and laughter. Life is not easy and people are harsh.

Dreariness is killing me, I am not sure if I could handle it anymore. I have no home and I don’t belong, and I have always been blamed for those feelings but it’s not my fault.

The Journey by Mary Oliver never fails in making me feel good.

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice –
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do –
determined to save
the only life you could save.

“Experiments on animals should be banned”. “I can’t eat meat; those poor creatures have to be killed so we could eat them”. “When I see a lady wearing a furrier coat I feel terrible and I want to go hit her”.

I can’t relate my self to any of the above quotes. I laugh when somebody say such things. This reaction (Laughing) might seem rude to some people; but I can’t resist.

I am against anguish treatment and hunting for fun yet I believe that animals are here to serve humans; they are created to be eaten, to take their fur and make clothes and rugs of them, to use their waste for agricultural uses, to try medicines on them before using them on humans to see if it has any side affects, to pet them, use them for transparent needs, leave some of them live to retention the life cycle. If not, people will be eating VG food only which means Ra-1 will die from hunger, wearing tree leaves and not all look good in these, and trying medicines on other humans which means more nut heads.

If we don’t use them they will be more animals than this planet could hold; and this planet is already full with useless humans.

Shopping with others is not a good thing to do. I went two weeks ago with my sister and cousin to find me a dress for my sister’s wedding party. Simple and elegant is what I want. My sister and cousin want me to get something different than I usually wear; they want me to change my style a bit.

We met at 5 pm at a coffee shop and then went on our searching trip to five different places; when ever I choose something they say NO SO SIMPLE; IT’S YOUR SISTER’S WEDDING. When ever they choose something I say NOWAY I’M GONNA WEAR THIS. We go back home and I decide to go on a weekend morning after having my morning caffeine fix and with no shopping partners. And BINGO I find this simple, elegant, gorgeous dress that was made for TF to wear. The price was a bit more than what I decided to pay for the dress yet didn’t mind paying the extra money.

And

Here

Is

The

Dress

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