22 May 2006
Broken Tongue (Lost her way)
“Where am I?” “And why am I in this situation?” She thought
It’s when graduating and feeling that she’s trapped in it; it has been defining her in every step she does. She was better before thinking of it as a problem, she was used to it, or was pretending to be used to it, that doesn’t matter, what matters is that she didn’t feel as bad about it as she does now.
Reality has been hitting her from every side, life isn’t easy at all as she thought; hard work they say will make you achieve your dreams. It’s also a fluent tongue. Fluent people will never understand how it affects a life if you talk with a stammer; it makes a stammerer choose what makes them less liable to talking.
When you reach a fluency level and taste its sweetness, you can’t go back to stammer, you can’t accept it any more; that’s what she felt, that’s what she suffered and always suffering from.
Her tongue was knotted and by her attempts to loosen it she broke it instead.
May 22nd, 2006 at 6:09 pm
i especially liked how u related being fluent with something sweet .. as if she’s acquired a taste for it, good stuff
not sure if these installments when she’s grown up are better written than when she was a child, or is it just because one can relate more to what she’s going through and understand what she’s longing for
May 22nd, 2006 at 7:58 pm
Fluency has a sweet taste that only those who lack it know it. She would love to have this feeling of sweetness for ever, and that what makes her try again and again.
It’s not only her that grew up it’s also her feelings; and that’s what you can relate to, the grown up feelings. You understand it more than the child’s, because in someway you could imagine your self in such situation. Although you would, it’s something different if you were really in it. And I hope you’ll never be in such situation.
Thank you