Fluent Thoughts

I was invited to a reception last night, and while I was there and was talking to a relative who attended the same highschool as I, I saw this lady wearing a blue dress she was someone I know but wasn’t sure who she was, it’s when I asked my relative

“I know this lady, but I ‘m not sure from where”
“Which one”
“The one in blue talking to N”
“Oh yes she is A”
“A who?”
“A from High school”
“Yes I remember her; let’s go and see if she remembers us too”
“you go, I’m not going”
“You greeted her already”
“No but if she didn’t remember me why would I show her how important she is by remembering her”
“Ok”

I approach A

“Hello A”
“Hi”
“Remember me?”
“You seem familiar to me. Wait, it can’t be..TF?”
“Yes”
“How are you?”
“I’m fine”
And we started talking about our lives and what we did since graduating from high school
“Is that girl M?”
“Yes”
“I thought so”
“Want to say hi to her?”
“No she didn’t remember me why should I”

???!!!

Every year Loosh and Boodi would participate in their school plays, and for the reason of our natural bind I, my mother and sometimes my father if he’s in town and not busy would go to watch them in that important event of their life.

For three years now I would see those three maids with two kids and a Video and a digital Camera. They would record the play and take photos of the kid with his siblings and friends.

This year it was the same and for the reason of my already bad mood I asked the maid with the video camera, “Where are his parents?” “At work” she replied “You come every year don’t you?” I asked “Yes and also his siblings” the maid replied.

That is very sad; don’t tell me that she is a working mother and that she can’t leave work for the sake of her kid’s plays. I don’t blame the father if he skipped because the father is the one responsible for providing money to his family (I know that many will disagree with me in this point but this is what I believe in). But you the mother the one who carried this child in you for nine months; how in god could you skip such an event. They will never forget that for you when seeing other kids embraced by their families, telling them how great they were, and taking photos of them; and this poor kid standing there waiting for his maid to pay him the attention that you should have paid.

I felt so sorry for this kid.

Soul: In peace as long as I’m close to Allah
Study: Warming up to start studying seriously.
Job: Quitted one and starting another soon.
Mind: Straight as usual and getting more knowledge in it.
Financials: Never broke.
Heart: Comfortable and relaxed.
Mood: Ups and Downs.
Health: Taking good care of my self.
Social life: Keeping those who are good and tossing those who deserve it.
Speech: Working on it with no high expectations.
Family: My sister will be a mother.
Elections: Can’t care less.
Vacation: Will be along one.
Surroundings: Accepting some and knocking down those I can’t accept.
Tears: Warmer than before; nearly to the level I need them to be.
Future: I still can’t see it clearly.
Tomorrow: I love it as always.
Yesterday: Has past and never coming back.
Weight: I’ve gained; I’m 59 KG now.
Friends: I love Ra-1.
 

I hate the words you said

I hate the way you said it

I hate how you voiced them out

I hate the feelings you left me with

Please don’t say them again

Please to not regret them

I might not remain silent any more

I might repeat a pain you don’t want to feel again

I might reply with words that could quake the ground under you

To be fair, I have to thank you for the tears you made me drop.

I’m straighter in my mind than all of you