Fluent Thoughts

I said  ”Yes”

The love for tomorrow in me is fading and losing its glory, the goodness of it is wary and waiting for it is worthless. I’ll just leave it without expectations.

Apparently, some people think that I’m a fool (a nitwit might be a better word) and that my acts are predictable which makes them act in such a manner, to reach the point to their self satisfaction. But it wouldn’t be fair for them to not know the truth about my reactions, and why was it this that I used to do before, yet not this time.

Well it is something that I only can say as the following

كان من طيب خاطر و ما عاد الخاطر طيب

Yes I have an evil side in me that don’t forgive, and I do have another evil side that leaves others wondering “why?”, without displaying the reasons to them.

Why is that? Because it feeds my dignity!

Riding a camel in the desert of life alone no matter how many people are around. Long was the journey I’ve walked, that I no more can stand the backache.

I haven’t been to Kuwait for sometime now (No, I’m not travelling I’m just staying at home and not going out if not for work and classes). I’ve been told that Kuwait has changed and people have transformed to other species; they say girls are faster in that transforming than guys. I will have to go to Kuwait soon to see what’s going on.

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يقولون هيفاء وهبي طاحت فوقها طيارة بس الحمدلله و ألف شكر له ما صار فيها شي بس إشوية تنهوص و جم دمعه

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I bought a cooking book; yes what you read is true A COOKING BOOK. I have decided to be خوش وحده و اتعلم أطبخ مثل خلق الله اللي يطبخون and I will test it on Ra-1

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I lost too much weight last month; I reached 53 kg, but thankfully I’m gaining again and hopefully at the end of July I will gain it all back. Currently: 55.5 Kg, Target: 58 kg.

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I have this song that has been stuck in my mind for days now شالطاري ما أدري

P.S. I don’t say sorry anymore for mistakes I didn’t do; in other words 
 ما أحب الدلع وأكثر ما كثر الله الطوف

طوف = walls